Ok … Here is a blog inspired by some really cool & not so cool things going on in my life!
Not So Cool First: In 2010 I lost the most amazing father a daughter could have ever had. We all deserve the abundance of love this great sea of life can offer; I was blessed to receive it from a really awesome man I called dad.
I learned unconditional, inspiring, happy love from my dad. Some of those most influential lessons came from hanging out bedside as dad struggled with having a machine pump the left side of his heart, overcoming stroke after stroke, internal bleeding, and not having a voice for the last five months of his life. So what did dad and I do …WE DANCED to his favorite music, sang all the words, and LOVED, LOVED, SMILED & LOVED as much as we could. There was a smile for every day, no matter what the day had to give to our family. I thank God that I was able to have my last dance with Dad before he went on to take his new place as our family’s number one guardian angel.
All his life lessons, all the times he protected me, and all the simple words of advice with the grace of his laugh and sweet compliments have continued to bless me and spread across my life into my experiences and are very inspirational for the meaning behind this blog. So my not so cool may just end up being REALLY COOL!
You can check out our family photos. HERE
So for the really cool thing going on in my life: After dad’s death I felt even more amazing amounts of emotions rushing over me. I had started working on healing some thoughts that did not serve my business or me before dad went into the hospital. But after dad passed, literally it was like I was giving birth to something far bigger than just healing some emotions that came up when the guy that was never really available anyways dumped me. As I was healing and getting through one labor pain, the next one would come a few weeks or even days later. Another more painful emotion would surface to heal. As they became more frequent, the tears started freely pouring for both love and celebration, and of course, also with all the pain and suffering needed to heal these emotions from the deeps of my mourning for all the curve balls being thrown at me. You know all the great things that make up our very being, they gives us a reason to move forward either to make ourselves better and get us out of a funk or to continue celebrating all the little things.
This emotional pregnancy makes me think having kids might be a little easier to birth (I will get back to you on that one). I felt the regret and being scared of the unknown. I was bedridden, swollen, alone with unusual cravings, moody, needy, in pain, and the best of it – I also felt a glow of excitement for this creation of new life, which seems to give me peace between the emotional outbreaks. I am not sure if I have given birth yet, and I am open to the fact that there might be some post partum depression. But this transition quite possibly could be the biggest thing to happen to me. So we will see … COOL HUH?!
Maybe this blog is my new infant that will blossom into whatever she wants to be when she’s all grown up! Again, it is an evolving realization, and the creation will present itself as I am open to receive.
I don’t know how this blog will inspire its readers, or how my love will spread to the masses. All I know is it has been a long time coming, and I am blessed with a talent and love for life that goes hand-in-hand with creating a blog full of love, celebration, and joy. I am praising the Divine with my entire heart for allowing me to be in a place where I can give so much love to such a simple space in this world, where I can celebrate all the love and abundance I experience from day to day. I hope, as a follower, you enjoy my blog, but most of all I hope you enjoying life and all its gifts.
My name is Jenn Ocken. And I am a fine art photographer! I believe life is a fine art! And I have a blast capturing it.
I have been a professional photographer since 2002, and without a doubt I am doing exactly what I should be doing! I am truly in love with life and all its gifts. So let’s celebrate it!
Family Facts: I am the youngest and only girl of five siblings. Two of my four brothers are also fine art photographers! How awesome, right!? You can check our family’s website by clicking here.
I also have an amazing resource for creating a personal, distinct, and unique event for family celebrations, non-profits, and businesses events. You will see them hanging around here. But I would be happy to pass good people to good people. Just send me a message here.
I am available to chat, photograph, love and all of the above!
peace & blessings. jenn ocken
Love your transparency sweetie.